no no no no no no NO!!
Why?! Of all the things that could have happened, whyyyyy?!
My friend and I were having such a blast talking stories whilst waiting for our Engl3 instructor on Monday. We were just pretty much chillaxing when I felt a sudden chill brush throughout my body. “I think I’m not ready to go to school. I feel like I don’t wanna stay here,” I whispered to my friend. A few seconds after that, here came the bad juju.
“Is this the class for English three, eleven thirty to twelve thirty, P707?” a voice entered the room. All eyes turned towards it. Then, all of a sudden, my heart literally felt like it jumped out of my chest. I felt so immobilized. I didn’t know what to think or what to say or what to feel. Every emotion that could possibly run through my body, ran. I didn’t know how to react with my jaw literally dropped open.
It was her. She is my instructor again. I had her for my Philippine Literature and she made my semester a living hell. And, here I am, apprehensive and even more agitated for the days that are about to follow.
She’s horrible, mean, and I really really really really did not want to be with her ever again. Destiny or fate has a funny way of telling me that life really is not fair.
Fuck. I’m doomed.
5:46 am • 11 June 2013
I think I’m just gonna go to school on Saturday and just keep an eye for the NBA scores tomorrow, since this friend didn’t want to come with me anyway. Hmpf. I’m still pretty much disappointed. But whatevers.
8:24 am • 6 June 2013
I am finally enrolled for this (first) semester.
I’m pretty much apprehensive of the expectations that are about to scurry in my way.
Let’s have it.
7:50 am • 6 June 2013
I don’t know.
I feel like a friend cancelled our plans tomorrow just because (I think) she has an idea that I might bring my boyfriend along with us. I guess she feels awkward being a third wheel? I don’t know. It’s not like I make her a third wheel. I even tell “K” to just do his thing when I bring him around. I tell him if it’s okay that I don’t bring him along sometimes because I was afraid of this. But yesterday, I brought him along. She saw him, and now I think she thinks that I’m gonna be with him anyway (for tomorrow) so she won’t accompany me anymore. I don’t know how to react to that! I have no friends here, and “K” is all I have. Well, before I ever met her, “K” was all I ever thought was my friend and everything. But since she can’t even feel comfortable around me with “K” then I guess she really isn’t a friend to me, or a friend in my life at all. She’s just an acquaintance. Nothing more.
Now, that is so disappointing. I really thought I finally have a friend. This sucks. More than ever.
7:45 am • 6 June 2013
As much as it is fun to have bountiful of peers around, it is still rather much better to look at the face I see first thing in the morning.
“K” is all I need.
6:25 am • 23 May 2013